Future Star's Major Blog
DAY ONE: May 8, 2025 Today I've been meditating on why I make music. What do I have to say? one could ask. What do I have to offer? also - why spend your time doing something without a clear purpose that consumes a lot of energy and involves certain amounts of risk without clear benefit? It's not making money, it's not really a productive act when you make a song. I have really come to the conclusion that for me, it's basically self care work! Psychic tooth brushing. I think it's something I need to do in order to keep normal. Totally different tangent but that just made me think of the cycle of ASC-IC-DSC-MC. I had a chat with an astrologer who talked about this as a developmental cycle - ASC being the gifts you are given upon entering the world, your golden kiss from the gods; IC being the things you take in from your early environment/roots/caretakers/family; DSC as the self you are when you learn and teach in reciprocal adult relationships; MC being the "mark you leave on the tree of life". I always come back to the fact that everything that has come to me, that I wasn't just given, has come to me through music. So many relationships, so many lessons, a feeling of belonging - feels very fitting in the DSC part of things. My DSC is in Capricorn - maybe this is kind of why it feels a bit like work? haha! It feels like something that needs to be tended and structured and polished and maintained to be at its best. (The astrologer's name is Teagan West and I really enjoy her work!) Anyway, that's what I'm thinking about right now. I'm working on some new stuff, and it's really got me grappling with these big feelings! More soon :) xoxo future star